Thursday, June 30, 2011


Dear Diary,

Today is a special day. Mark rode with me at the backseat of our car for a few minutes. I saw him on his way to a jeepney, and immediately called his attention to offer him a ride on our way to annex. I was  actually taken aback with my courage to shout his name. We've never been close, and i never had the guts to talk tohim before. Anyhow, it was a chance that I should not miss, and so I did take advantage of the situation! We talked a little inside the car but that was pretty much about it. When we arrived at our destination, he said thank you, and after that, things went back to normal. And by normal I mean me and him as strangers to each other. 

This same day I realize that he will never talk to me the way he talks to other people. He will never see as a person the way I want him to. He will never be interested in me, not as a lover, not even as a friend. And it hurts me so much because i have been through this before, and still I'm allowing myself to fall for him. That's just soooooooooooooo stupid of me. 

Huhuhuhhu. Ano dapat kung gawin??? 

Saturday, June 18, 2011


From the very first moment I laid eyes on you, I knew right then and there that you would mean something to me. And damn, I was not wrong! 

It's been more than a month since I started working, and since then I have been seeing you all the time, not only in our workplace, but almost everywhere. I don't know why, but you never fail to make me smile. I know we don't talk a lot, but your presence is more than enough for me.

Anyway, have I not told you that your cute little mustache and goatee looks good on you? Yeah, it does! Your height seems perfect for me, I know your short but you look really cute. The way you walk is a little strange because your ass moves left to right, and vice versa, weirdly. Your skin is really nice, it shows that you take care of your body, and you're conscious of how you look. Every time you pass by me, I would smell the fragrance in the air, and darn you smell good! And yeah, your smile tickles every single gay bone in my body! Your lips are red, and kissable. Your hair looks good. The way you talk amazes me. I don't know how to mingle with you, because everything you do is extraordinary.  

My admiration for you grows every single day, and I'm afraid if I won't stop now, I'd fall deeply. I'm writing this entry to remind me that there was a time when I have completely fallen for you, but I know I have to stop now before things get out of control.