Today is a special day. Mark rode with me at the backseat of our car for a few minutes. I saw him on his way to a jeepney, and immediately called his attention to offer him a ride on our way to annex. I was actually taken aback with my courage to shout his name. We've never been close, and i never had the guts to talk tohim before. Anyhow, it was a chance that I should not miss, and so I did take advantage of the situation! We talked a little inside the car but that was pretty much about it. When we arrived at our destination, he said thank you, and after that, things went back to normal. And by normal I mean me and him as strangers to each other.
This same day I realize that he will never talk to me the way he talks to other people. He will never see as a person the way I want him to. He will never be interested in me, not as a lover, not even as a friend. And it hurts me so much because i have been through this before, and still I'm allowing myself to fall for him. That's just soooooooooooooo stupid of me.
Huhuhuhhu. Ano dapat kung gawin???